dried ㅡ sunflower

remember even if you're the one who teach or the one who give orders don't forget that the one that under you is a human too no matter how busy you are or how struggle you are don't forget that you need time to rest too not everyone were born with mentally and physically strong don't forget

dear me im sorry that you tried so hard to help others when you're falling im sorry for letting you giving roses to others while you get the thorns im sorry that you tried so hard to smile everyday when you're hurt deeply inside im sorry for not giving you much time to heal yourself im so sorry for not loving you as much as you love others forgive me

I don't imitate others why would I? I'm just being myself it's more comfortable saying me replacing yours? it's annoying it's not comfortable at all being in someone's places I only want to replace myself the old me to a better version of myself you thought it's funny to tell me those but it hurting me deeply inside

like everyone said we come and go nothing stay forever but true friendship will thank you for being around for the whole semester for helping me and accompany me even from different places our memories are still there we cry and happy together we laugh and mad together we rented a car we went to a nice places we ate delicious foods I miss those moment although it's just a week since we left I already miss you guys stay healthy and safe till we meet again

when im gone dont tell me that you loved me dont tell me that you're sorry dont tell me that you need me i dont wanna hear that im just sick of you guys i try not to hate you but you force me to BUT its time for me to forgive you forgive me if i wronged you i cant hate you anymore i wish you guys have a better life than mine

everyone have their own hard time the feels of being mad sad and confused at the same time I understand but can you not let your anger out to innocent people? everything is hard before it is easy nothing is easy for the first time it's okay to rest for awhile and let's work even harder together

I'm tired everything is exhausting I need rest physically and mentally I only want to daydream while staring out of the window and I just want to sleep just like a cat creating fake scenarios in my mind and smile I dont want to be disturbed just want to daydream

that feeling when you can't tell everything when you can't tell the truth it's frustrating when will I able to talk everything & honestly clearly & smoothly or never? I wish I could tell you that I really like you but sometimes I don't like you and things that I really annoyed but I'm afraid that you'll take it the wrong way that can make us fight I'm afraid that you'll hate me forever

a mind that full of untold words it's too much I have no strength to talk if I talk in silent could you hear me? if one day I stop writing would you know my mind? obviously no nobody will even myself I can't hear yours even if I try to talk I'm lost in words my words are limited that's why I always keep being silent

my head hurts too much unsettled things so busy that there's no time to cry at all they just do all the task without knowing what gonna happen next all they want is to finish it me too. I want to finish it as soon as possible I'm tired of being busy It's bloody exhausting

an unhealthy day I went broke in a day buying all the chocolate just for the wrappings a scrapbook of 70 pieces of packaging with the labels I'm sick of it the smaller, the better searching for it everywhere in the rubbish bin feels like a trash luckily it's already end

I love being in a dark room make me feel great for some reason but I hate that dark feelings make me feel sad & worst it's all started with suddenly it feels weird I tried to make myself happy but maybe I'm not satisfied with it sometimes, I do crave for attention I just want to talk more but people starts to get bored with me what should I do? hey I'm just fine I mean it not really actually

everything looks so delicious even when the cats eat it looks so yummy oh I'm hungry my stomach is pretty empty my mind is full of food I have to wait longer oh I'm hungry the class is boring I'm not joking when will the class end? oh I'm hungry I need delicious food I need sweet drink I need my eat time right now oh I'm deadly hungry

we are all getting older not everything will stay the same we might hate the things we love and love the things we hate meet new people and new life experience new environment everything seems so different and something might seems so familiar sometimes, we will feel down we will feel clueless and hopeless but hey STAND UP! we have time, use it wisely better things are coming in our way so please hang in there dearself