dried ㅡ sunflower

the dark minds come again after a long time i feel lost, again bad things happened after a good things have been told such a disaster I can't talk I can't think I can't cry I CAN'T who's gonna hear? who's gonna be the shoulder? not everyone that I can talk to not everyone will accept the feeling the endless black hole where the life have been trapped who made it? human

don't hope too high when your words hurting me don't ask for something better when you don't even trust me don't talk too much when you silently downgraded me don't get a high expectation when you don't even support me don't tell about yourself when you are actually mocking me don't dream for something big when you don't appreciate me just don't. you're making me tired. with you. with everything.

the first time we met i never thought of parting and leaving we eat & have fun we study & talk together but when the day comes we have no choice and its sad its even sadder when im the one who can't keep on contact I just don't know how

just wanna say that i wish i felt something but i felt nothing

sometimes I'm wondering if my friends really love to be with me sometimes I'm wondering if people really think me as their friend sometimes I'm wondering if I really have friends or maybe just a friend but now I'm not wondering anymore stay or leave it's their choice I'm not gonna force anyone because I don't have the right I will just go with the flow

what do you see? the reflection from the mirror with a sad expression on the face what do you see? a bunch of task the same amount everyday what do you see? a grey laptop that always in responding mode waiting to be serviced what do you see? a pillow on the bed that wet with tears of mine what do you see? black a dark view i love this place i wish tomorrow will be better but it was all my imagination

everything I do & say I always make it clear but still no one understands actually I have my own reason but they didn't ask so I didn't tell so let me ask 'them' something "why are you judging instead of asking me 'why' ?"